September 29, 1998 a Memory Made

Today I sat at work and it hit me how on this day, back in '98, I met Bear. I even smile to this day. We had alot more downs than up. I admit, there are times I did wish we could do a 'do over'--yet it finally did hit me: the the past is the past, and it can't be changed.

Too bad at times.

Bear was, and still is a handsome guy. I think more now than when I met him those 12 years ago. Our season wasn't to be what I wanted: together, married and kids. It became more instead to plant seeds in each other. It took me a long time to be OK with knowing someone else may reap that harvest from the seeds I planted.

I wonder if Bear thinks the same of me?

For a while we drifted in and out of each other's life, while dancing with others. We just seem to always float back to one another. Never really could make it stick. Blamed each other for our mess up. Then enough was finally enough. The cycle had to finally be broken. We both had to grow up and away.

Can't do over.

Yet, some memories do still make me smile.

And for that: Happy Anniversary.

Thursday Thought

Stepped on the scale. Sets firm where I was the other day. Hmm. Since I had a sinus/cold thing going on, I didn't head to the rec center to exercise. And I can feel it. Now I feel more like me. So back to that daily routine. Can tell inches have melted-and I like that.

And I guzzled my 74 ounces of water yesterday and will today.

In the meantime, I got to thinking bout an old love of mine. In fact, I've mentioned him a few times on the blog. Bear--is what I call him. Hit me in recent times how much of a grump o' Bear he's turned out to be! See, he got ticked how I wrote stuff on his Facebook Wall and didn't think to ask HIM if it was OK. Really? It's FACEBOOK-not some secret code spot for the FBI (is it?) What do you do on FACEBOOK? Oh, it was rated G stuff, like "When ya gonna post a pic?"

Even if you're networking--you write on Walls. Well, when this little ditty sunk in, and after I asked Bear if he instructed other friends to ask permission to scipt on his Wall (which I've yet to receive a response), I had an a-ha moment. How it's all about control. His over me.

Makes sense. In all the time we've known each other, Bear has always been so pissed at me. For just about everything. And me? I thought we could work out anything. Heck, love was a many splendored thing. Bear thought so too--if he ruled all the roost. Now, I'm all for the man being head of the household. However, that doesn't mean you're always mad when I quite never do what you think I should and >gasp!<>

That happened alot. Which was alot of the problem.

Oh well. When you have those a-ha moments, you mix a sliced banana and mix with Blue Bell Homemade Vanilla ice cream. Trick is to have just a few spoonfuls of ice cream--not a PINT, like I use to do-at one sitting. While that cures what ails you-let a cat nap in your lap.

Priceless.

Still Time Before....

....my favorite New and (future) Food Network Star, Aaron McCargo dazzles us with his culinary talents. This guy's smile could melt any iceberg! Plus he comes across as a cuddly ol' bear that can whip up food to make my tummy happy. OK, sure, I realize Lisa is from Dallas, and in one episode, she did mention her Iowa grandmother. So we have the Iowa connection going on, but I am sorry-my heart and plate and fork and spoon go to the cuddly ol' bear.

Since I do have some time I may tackle my sinkful of dishes, mop my floor, do laundry or just sit on my couch and wait for a cat to stake claim to my lap.

Tough choice.

A couple more e-mails and then head for my couch-well, you know the rest!

C'mon Aaron!