A new Home...

Oh my! It's 10:30 Wednesday night, and I closed on Monday at High Noon. A rollercoaster ride--and I HATE rollercoasters! When I was nine, my mom told me my braces would fly out of my mouth if I rode the rollercoaster. OK--that's another post.. :)

I've needed this time to collect myself. How did you feel after you closed on your first home? I found right before closing what my payment would be. That was stroke number one and two. Those pesky taxes and insurance. As I walked from the title company I wondered if I could sell my new home, I had to move into. All day my blood pressure went so high, I wondered if I should have 911 on speed dial. What had I gotten myself into?

Once I calmed down, I was glad to have a house to call my own. Yet, the situation surrounding getting to the finish lane was a pain. Had to seperate the house from the behaviour of those involved with my home loan. I felt my Lender talked down to me, when I spoke of my concerns. My realtor apologize for the front end customer service I didn't receive. He's trying to ease some of my concerns, by a neutral party going over my paperwork-to make sure everything is above board. Inspite of all this--I'm giddy for my house.

I plan to move in next week. There's some things I want done prior to moving: paint over the paneled wall for one. That wall was cool--oh, about 1965.

About Monday, I now wonder why I stressed so? When am I going to get it through my head God would not bring me this far and leave me? He's been showing me miracles--why did I freak out so? I know He's with me. Why do I ever doubt? Because at times, my flesh takes over and wants to control. I'm better than I was....I need to get MORE better and realize that though all things, God is with me.